Saturday, October 04, 2008

For Lack of Trying

Welcome, beautiful traveler. I greet you fresh from exercise of the body and relaxation of the mind.

As I started my nightly walk this evening, a nagging desire to come up with a new post bedeviled me. What to think about? What to write about? Could I apply myself and distill some essence of wisdom to share?

Stride and stride and stride went past, squares of sidewalk under my tennis shoes, the bow of the yellow moon hovering glowful above the treetops. Despite having mulled the subject for only a few minutes, I felt utterly lacking in inspiration.

And then I rebelled against my hunger to be inspired. I thought, "Just walk. It's ridiculous to try to force something that's not there. You don't have to be wise -- just be."

I felt much better immediately. But more to the point, I had not taken another five steps when the following hit me, unbidden and uncoerced:

Wisdom will come, or it won't. There's no point in stretching, seeking, reaching, searching for it, because wisdom is not a goal. 

It is a consequence.

So there it is. If you must seek, then seek to have the right kinds of experiences. Learning will follow in due course.

Thank you, goddess of love, for the patience to just be.

Lovingly yours,

A devotee


6 comments:

G-Man said...

Thats right...Just be you!!!

If you do a little more visiting to other blogs, you can get some wonderful ideas, AND meet some great new friends...G

Devotee said...

I'm constantly working on broadening my sphere of blog connections, but I have a limited amount of time to devote, unfortunately ...

Lulda Casadaga said...

I always tell my husband "TO JUST BE"...he hasn't gotten it all yet.
Goddess of LOVE help him please!!

Devotee said...

Do husbands ever get it all?
; )

I think there are depths to that question that say as much about wives as about husbands ...

I love your avatar drawing, by the way. Your blog says you're an artist -- did you draw that yourself?

Strumpet said...

Yes.

Yes.

I just need to BE.

If I could only quiet the thoughts that circle 'round in my mind...I think I'd be MUCH better at doing that.

I am going to be saying this to myself much: "Strumpet, just BE."

Yes.

Yes. Yes.

Devotee said...

Strumpet,

Mona left a great comment on one of my posts about how we make the world with our thoughts. It's a wonderful corollary to the idea of just being.

Hmm. Those words strung themselves together in a way that sparked my brain -- right after I wrote them, I read "just being" as a noun phrase instead of a verb phrase. Even as we aspire to the state of just being, we should also all aspire to become just beings (that is, beings who are just, as in 'justice').

Words are cool.